Archive for September, 2009

P.S. Long way down…

Posted in Circadian Events with tags , , on 21 September, 09 by MastrN8

I wish to relate one last thing before I wrap it up for the week. If your reading this post and have yet to read “Ahh…the sweet, sweet sting of relative failure,” my previous post, I strongly recommend that you read that one first. This post is just an addendum to that one.

So, a few months ago I joined an honor society at my community college, the notable Phi Theta Kappa. For those few imaginary people who read this drivel regularly, you may recall my post in which I relayed the inner struggle I faced when deciding if I should join the society. I weighed the pros and cons of the decision carefully and after much struggle, I decided that the words Phi Theta Kappa would look better on my transcripts than nothing at all, so I joined. The biggest con I encountered when devising the list however, was that I did not want to join an organization that would turn me into a girl scout. In other words, I did not want to join an organization that was so hard desperate for funding that it resorted to peddling baked goods to the general public. Alas, I’m sure you have realized by now that my worst fear has come true. Crap. On 23 Sept 2009, drop by for a slice of dignity as those participating in this disgusting ritual will be serving theirs up for the low, low price of who gives a crap! What a huge price to pay for an honorable mention at graduation.

Ahh…the sweet, sweet sting of relative failure.

Posted in Circadian Events with tags , , , on 21 September, 09 by MastrN8

This semester has definitely gotten off to a slow start. I just can’t seem to find the motivation to crack my books and focus on my studies. My mind wan to wander and explore a myriad of subjects rather than be  penned down to the rigid schedule of assigned readings that I need to complete. Although I currently love the subjects that I am enrolled in, save Philosophy which only achieves a moderately likes status, I find myself wanting to study other subjects.

Currently, I am in school trying to finish my pre-reqs for pharmacy school. For the past two years I have been enrolled in a community college to achieve this end. My ultimate goal of course is to get accepted at a Pharm school in state and become a pharmacist. Although I still desire to achieve this goal, I am finding that I wish to study many other things than just biology and chemistry. I have found that I have an interest in everything from history to the japanese language. I am impatient to get through pharmacy school, not because that is what I want to do for the rest of my life, but so I can focus my energies on studying mythology or the soviet occupation of Afghanistan or the theory of Pangea or the rings of Neptune…the list is endless. I am finding out that I would rather have an extensively broad knowledge base rather than a deep understanding of anything in particular. And yet, I know that in order to achieve my goal of being a doctor, I must focus and power through, blah, blah, blah.

The above two paragraphs reflect how I’ve been feeling for the past month or two. That all changed last Wednesday.

On Wednesday, 16 Sept 2009, I received the results of my first Organic Chemistry exam; it was a 76% C. Crap. I think the above two paragraphs will give you some insight into the reason why I scored so low. I know I really need to step it up if I ever wish to achieve the grades needed to get into Pharm school. I need to stop jacking around with topics that I have no business studying during the semester. There just isn’t enough time to take on subjects beyond those that I am enrolled in. To add insult to injury, I found out about an hour ago that the admissions test for Pharm school (PCAT) is scheduled for January. I must take the test at this time in order to apply for school next fall! After January’s test date, the soonest I would be able to take the test is in June, I’m pretty sure that it will be too late for fall registration. As I sit here typing this, as the words appear on my screen in black and white, the reality if the situation is really starting to hit home. I need to take this relative failure in O chem and use it to my advantage. I need to take the feelings of guilt and inadequacy and direct them into a positive direction. A direction that will light the proverbial fire under my ass so that I can finish what I’ve started…successfully.

A summer to remember.

Posted in Circadian Events with tags , , on 8 September, 09 by MastrN8

As I headed back through the front doors of school a couple of weeks ago, I felt, for the first time since high school, a twinge of reluctance and melancholy. Summer was jam packed with joys and triumphs and stress and sadness. I was lucky enough to become quite close to a family member only to have them leave my life forever. I got to hang out with old friends to experience new things and rekindled old friendships to engage in new conversations. All in all, I must say that the summer of ’09 was one of the best/worst/ best again summers to date.

As most of you read in my previous post, three months ago, sorry about that, I had just started a summer class. Let me just say that should anyone tell you that they are taking Calculus during a ten-week summer course, do them a favor and slap the idea right out of their head. Yes, I am glad that it is over with. Yes, I am glad that I am not taking it whilst taking my current load of courses. No, I would never in a million years do that again. I almost feel that it would have been mor beneficial if I would have taken two to three gen. ed. courses like philosophy and econ. over the summer than just the one math course. Oh well, I got through it with a B and that is all that matters. God willing, that is the last math course I ever take. Don’t get me wrong however, I did enjoy it and I learned loads, but I worked my butt off for that B! I think if I had taken it during a regular semester I would have done much better.

Back in June I related to you an anecdote that happened to me at a ballgame. I was with my wife’s grandmother and grabbed me a foul ball. ‘Member? You ‘member! Anyhow, I am sorry to say that Grandma Espinoza passed away on July 24. I was very fortunate to have gotten to know her in the last five or six months of her life. The funeral was nice, but unfortunately it didn’t exactly go off as Grandma wished it to. Family politics can sometimes muddy the waters a bit and make us lose sight of what is really important. I feel however, that everyone was able to say their goodbyes in a respectful manner and mourn in their own way. A great many people will miss you Tortilla Grandma.

To lighten things up a bit I wish to share my experiences in the pit. Mayhemfest came to town on July 19th! Of the many, many bands present I got mere feet away from Cannibal Corpse, All That Remains, Bullet for My Valentine, Killswitch Engage, Slayer, and Marilyn Manson! It was quite a rush, one I haven’t felt in about a decade when I would go to a concert every week, or so it seemed. The pit passes were pricey but well worth it. In the past decade I somehow forgot the rush from jumping in the mosh pit and throwing punches and violently shoving people while head-pounding metal riffs threaten to burst your eardrums. At one point, when the pit was especially dangerous, I jumped in and got cold-cocked right in the side of the head. It hurt, I won’t lie; it made me stumble to the inside edge of the circle where someone shoved me back into the center of the pit. I lost my balance and as I was going down I swung a fist right into the face of the guy that hit me. We both went down and landed hard, but you know, about five or six hands reached out to help us up. No one holds a grudge in the pit but no one holds back either, to me that is freaking beautiful. Those that don’t appreciate the Metal music genre will ever understand that. Sure you may jump into the pit and get knocked out, bashed and bruised a little, but no one is really out to hurt anyone, it’s just a way to have fun and let go of some stress.

This summer went by a little too fast for my tastes and I’m really finding it hard to concentrate on my studies. Currently I am taking Anatomy and Physiology, Organic Chemistry,Philosophy, and World Geography. I really meant to get a lot of studying packed into this long Labor Day weekend but I found myself slacking off. I really don’t feel much like cracking a book right now. I know I’ll be stressed this week, Thank God it’s a short one, but at this point I am not sweating it, I’m just going to take it easy and worry about it tomorrow.

I know this post was a little disjointed, sorry, I’ll work on that. I had a lot to report and want to really start writing more consistently in the future. Hopefully, I’ll talk to you next week.